|I didn't really bother looking for how Git/Github works, that's probably the reason why I don't like it.|
|I've started a ton of projects but I've finished almost none of them. However, I'm still proud of those projects as I put hard work into them and they're exactly what I wanted when I made them. It shows that I can accomplish the goals I wanted in the short term but struggle with the long-term (no perseverance) which I have to work on (and shows in my reality as well).|
|I'm exactly the same. I think my "problem" is that I have too many cool ideas and I have to stop what I'm doing and start on the new idea right now.|
No one else understands what it feels like to have social anxiety. Social anxiety remains a relatively misunderstood anxiety disorder, so it comes as no surprise that we feel at a loss when it comes to overcoming it. Many therapists lack the required knowledge to diagnose the disorder properly, and very few structured cognitive-behavioral therapy groups exist in the world. With time, hopefully this becomes less of an issue.
A man hates to go to work because a meeting is scheduled the next day. He knows that these meetings always involve co-workers talking with each other about their current projects. Just the thought of speaking in front of co-workers raises his anxiety. Sometimes he can’t sleep the night before because of the anticipatory anxiety that builds up.
Finally, the meeting is over. A big wave of relief spills over him as he begins to relax. But the memory of the meeting is still uppermost in his mind. He is convinced he made a fool of himself and that everyone in the room saw how afraid he was when he spoke and how stupid he acted in their presence. At next week’s meeting, the boss is going to be there. Even though this meeting is seven days away, his stomach turns raw with anxiety and the the fear floods over him again. He knows that in front of the boss he’ll stammer, hesitate, his face will turn red, he won’t remember what to say, and everyone will witness his embarrassment and humiliation.
He has seven miserable days of anxiety ahead of him, to think about it, ruminate over it, worry about it, overexaggerate it in his mind...over and over again.
|All day, every day, life is like this. Fear. Apprehension. Avoidance. Pain. Anxiety about what you said. Fear that you said something wrong. Worry about others' disapproval. Afraid of rejection, of not fitting in. Anxious to enter a conversation, afraid you'll have nothing to talk about. Hiding what's wrong with you deep inside, putting up a defensive wall to protect your "secret". You are undergoing the daily, chronic trouble of living with this mental disorder we call social anxiety disorder.|
|I'm quite unable to speak, unless it's a burocratical-ish speak.|
Lately, it's been getting better, but I still feel a lot like I should not be talking instead.
I feel like every time I speak, I've repeated myself, so I ask if I repeated myself and feel dumb, say "whatever" and break whatever I was saying.
Most of the time I'm silent, I also think about "what should I say if X asks me Y?" and try to "cache" an answer.
This only happens in real-life situations.
|EDIT: I am going to ignore computerquip's next post. I feel there is so much wrong with it on so many levels but I don't want to get into a flamewar nor derail this thread any further.|